I got in a car crash yesterday

I'm still scared.

A Dinosaur in Space

I just saw a picture of a dinosaur in an astronaut suit. Do you think that's really what happened to the dinosaurs?? Maybe they aren't really extinct. Maybe they are just hiding out on mars! haha and that's why so many space expeditions aren't successful. They run into a T-Rex and get eaten. Just some food for thought. Anyone else a bit skeptical?

Me? Cute?

David: you're cute! Admit it!
Me: oh please. I'm far from cute.
David: no you aren't! You're cute! Accept it!
Me: You're just blind. that's why you wear glasses!
Random Stranger: Hey cutie! ;) Lookin' good
Me: ....................this proves nothing!

The guy.

So have you ever liked someone so much that you actually get butterflies? I mean honest to god silly stomach butterflies?? Haha this guy might actually be worth my time ladies and gentlemen :) He is thinking about asking me out after spring break. I'm scared though...I like him a lot...I haven't liked anyone this fast and this intensely since you know who...and we all know how that ended...but people tell me he's different...dating him would break all of the rules I made for myself...I said no trumpets, no military/military hopefuls, no football players. What did I do? I like him anyways...I make no sense. But maybe it'll work this time...I'll keep you guys posted :)

I might have a boyfriend as of next week

I'm not alone

I just need to keep reminding myself that. "I'm not alone, I'm not alone, I'm not alone!" like a mantra. I just have to keep repeating it. I really need someone to talk to about these emotions...It's hard for me to open up in person. Like I glued the fake smile on. Somehow, in person, nothing seems worth complaining about...I don't want people to rationalize what's wrong for me...I want them to be aggravated and upset too. I just want them to hold me and tell me it's going to be ok.

I'm cheating on this blog

I have a whole other blog where I have my real secrets...I thought just typing/posting them would be enough...but it isn't really freeing unless someone reads them...you don't have to read it...its long, but it's here if you want to. http://readyfortandomrantings.blogspot.com/

This made me smile

Suicide Prevention?

So today in class, we were talking about the signs of a person who is thinking about suicide. I realized that I count for a lot of those. Why isn't anyone concerned?

This is what I needed to hear

Are you feeling alone
Like you're so out of place
I've been there before
Stumbling every time you try
Sometime it's easier to hide

You wear your heart on your sleeve
And so do I
Just enough to believe
That we can make a change if we try
The fear becomes like dust in the light

Let go, it's your chance
To live out loud

Take this time to shine, don't waste a minute
'Cause the love you've got inside is a gift you give away
So come on, come on and radiate
Don't be shy you know you gotta live it
'Cause the light you've got inside can be the difference today
So come on, come on and radiate
I see a spark in your eyes

It's obvious
That hope is alive
You were meant for more in this life
You're glowing like the sun in the sky

Here you go, it's your chance
To live out loud

CHORUS
Don't be afraid don't be ashamed
To let it show, let 'em know, yea let it out
Love like there is no other way
No better time than now

Let go, it's your chance
To live out loud

CHORUS